unable to sleep (again)
as in the case of the past several weeks, im still up and unable to sleep early. it makes no difference if i need to report to work in the morning or in the afternoon or if its the weekend... i just can't get myself to sleep early...
right now, the usual time when i get sleepy is anywhere between 2am to 4am. that usually is not a problem when i go to work in the afternoon. but if i am in the regular shift (9am), that's when it turns out to be a little iffy... that is when i need to have coffee in the morning, when i get to the office, then after lunch... coffee sustains me (and ofcourse my daily dose of multivitamins).
i wrote here before about this already. i wrote something why i can't sleep. and i know why. but i also know that it is self inflicted. why? well i tend to think about things a lot... sometimes, i get to a point that i overly analyze things up to exhaustion. by then, sleeping it of is the only recourse.
yes, im an analytical person... too analytical perhaps. that kind of thing pays of when done in the context of work since analytical skills form a big part of every employee's framework. but when being analytical is done in the context of one's personal life? it then becomes both a gift and a curse. a gift because i tend to factor-in what my mind says. a curse because i tend to factor-in my mind in personal things too much.... which then results in this... spending early part of the day on the internet and unable to sleep.
maybe i should start not getting my head more on my personal life. after all, that is the essense of the personal life, you let your heart guide you through it. but then again, if my head and my heart are saying 2 separate things, where do you go?
as for me, ill try to go to my bed, turn off the lights, lie down, and close my eyes. maybe, just maybe, sleep will visit me soon. i need it. my body is weakend by flu-like symptoms the last couple of days, my mind has been over-loaded by thoughts of work and of my personal life, and my heart has been in and out of emotional coma...
sleep is my salvation, my hiding place, my escape. i long for it now...
right now, the usual time when i get sleepy is anywhere between 2am to 4am. that usually is not a problem when i go to work in the afternoon. but if i am in the regular shift (9am), that's when it turns out to be a little iffy... that is when i need to have coffee in the morning, when i get to the office, then after lunch... coffee sustains me (and ofcourse my daily dose of multivitamins).
i wrote here before about this already. i wrote something why i can't sleep. and i know why. but i also know that it is self inflicted. why? well i tend to think about things a lot... sometimes, i get to a point that i overly analyze things up to exhaustion. by then, sleeping it of is the only recourse.
yes, im an analytical person... too analytical perhaps. that kind of thing pays of when done in the context of work since analytical skills form a big part of every employee's framework. but when being analytical is done in the context of one's personal life? it then becomes both a gift and a curse. a gift because i tend to factor-in what my mind says. a curse because i tend to factor-in my mind in personal things too much.... which then results in this... spending early part of the day on the internet and unable to sleep.
maybe i should start not getting my head more on my personal life. after all, that is the essense of the personal life, you let your heart guide you through it. but then again, if my head and my heart are saying 2 separate things, where do you go?
as for me, ill try to go to my bed, turn off the lights, lie down, and close my eyes. maybe, just maybe, sleep will visit me soon. i need it. my body is weakend by flu-like symptoms the last couple of days, my mind has been over-loaded by thoughts of work and of my personal life, and my heart has been in and out of emotional coma...
sleep is my salvation, my hiding place, my escape. i long for it now...
posted by jones at 2:28 AM
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