back in more ways than one
"back in more ways than one." i had that status on my YM when i finally logged backed in after more than a month of hiatus. and surprise, surprise, i had a whole lot of people chatting with me after just a few minutes online. before the day ended, i had online chats with 9 different people.
some did ask the reason behind the status message. i just told them that it is something that people should see in me from this point on... no need to elaborate.
a few other friends had actually been asking me why i was not logging on on YM. i had my reasons, justified or not, but nevertheless it made me decide not to.
but now, im back! not just on YM but on everything else i put in the back-burner for the past couple of months or so.
i was really in a funk since boracay. i just don't know exactly what triggered it but after all the fun in bora last april, my life was really spiralling for me. the only saving grace was the birth of my very cute niece, jenna last may 20. spending time just looking at her and playing with her is the best my days could get... atleast until last friday (17 June).
i just got over the hump. i had my mind set that whatever difficulties life has given me, it is actually up to me if i would let me affect me for so much. sure, it would be difficult. after all, im just human with all the emotions we all have. sure, ill be tempted to curse to the high heavens, utter careless words, belittle everything good supposedly behind actions done to me, or sulk on the things i can't have.
but i know that things do happen for a reason, and i finally understood that i can still find happiness from other places, not just from those whom i wished i would find it. i made a resolution to myself that inspite of everything negative that has or has been happening to my life, i can still choose to be happy!
i started it last friday. i made a pact to the barkada to always be around no matter what. after all, they have been my friends for half of my life... brothers even.
i then reconnected with friends from Friends. i know the reputation this place has had but let me tell everyone, there is no better word for that place than its name. i met diverse personalities at Friends and so far, the one thing in common from everyone is the fact that they enjoy life. when we all are in that place, we enjoy the time, and music, and dancing, and singing with the band, and the booze, and new found friends. actually, the last couple of times i got to that place, i only saw a couple of friends i made bonds with from 2 years back. but hey, Friends will never be Friends without the people being friendly and all, right?!
then the weekends sort of made me a new revelation. weekends should let you reconnect with the other important things in life, like family, friends, activities you really enjoy doing (like basketball), your creative passions (writing, sketching portraits), and your faith. in a busy world such as hours, these things shout for a share of your time. if our work puts the food on our tables, the time spent on these other important things are food for our soul!
late saturday night, i was out on the bench on the park beside our house (and beside the basketball court). the only light out there was the light from our house and the moonlight. i stayed out and just admired the world. i really haven't done that for so long. i got too involved with what was happening in my life that i forgot how to live my life to the fullest.
i now understand! i now know what i was missing! i now know i can still be happy! I'M BACK!
some did ask the reason behind the status message. i just told them that it is something that people should see in me from this point on... no need to elaborate.
a few other friends had actually been asking me why i was not logging on on YM. i had my reasons, justified or not, but nevertheless it made me decide not to.
but now, im back! not just on YM but on everything else i put in the back-burner for the past couple of months or so.
i was really in a funk since boracay. i just don't know exactly what triggered it but after all the fun in bora last april, my life was really spiralling for me. the only saving grace was the birth of my very cute niece, jenna last may 20. spending time just looking at her and playing with her is the best my days could get... atleast until last friday (17 June).
i just got over the hump. i had my mind set that whatever difficulties life has given me, it is actually up to me if i would let me affect me for so much. sure, it would be difficult. after all, im just human with all the emotions we all have. sure, ill be tempted to curse to the high heavens, utter careless words, belittle everything good supposedly behind actions done to me, or sulk on the things i can't have.
but i know that things do happen for a reason, and i finally understood that i can still find happiness from other places, not just from those whom i wished i would find it. i made a resolution to myself that inspite of everything negative that has or has been happening to my life, i can still choose to be happy!
i started it last friday. i made a pact to the barkada to always be around no matter what. after all, they have been my friends for half of my life... brothers even.
i then reconnected with friends from Friends. i know the reputation this place has had but let me tell everyone, there is no better word for that place than its name. i met diverse personalities at Friends and so far, the one thing in common from everyone is the fact that they enjoy life. when we all are in that place, we enjoy the time, and music, and dancing, and singing with the band, and the booze, and new found friends. actually, the last couple of times i got to that place, i only saw a couple of friends i made bonds with from 2 years back. but hey, Friends will never be Friends without the people being friendly and all, right?!
then the weekends sort of made me a new revelation. weekends should let you reconnect with the other important things in life, like family, friends, activities you really enjoy doing (like basketball), your creative passions (writing, sketching portraits), and your faith. in a busy world such as hours, these things shout for a share of your time. if our work puts the food on our tables, the time spent on these other important things are food for our soul!
late saturday night, i was out on the bench on the park beside our house (and beside the basketball court). the only light out there was the light from our house and the moonlight. i stayed out and just admired the world. i really haven't done that for so long. i got too involved with what was happening in my life that i forgot how to live my life to the fullest.
i now understand! i now know what i was missing! i now know i can still be happy! I'M BACK!
posted by jones at 1:57 AM
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