when the right thing feels so wrong

having made the decision that should be what is right and what is needed, i struggle to find comfort and reason into what i was feeling...

if what i did is right, then why do i feel i made a very big mistake?

i miss being with her. i miss talking to her. i miss her laughs. i even miss her temperament.

i miss her a lot...

father's day

last sunday was father's day and after we greeted the dads in our household (my dad and my younger brother), i was surprised with one of the best compliments i ever had in my life...

my mom said i, the older brother who is still single and still enjoying being a bachelor, was very much like a father also in the house because of the responsibilities i took on with the family without even being asked for it.

my mom and my youngest brother then greeted me "happy father's day (kuya) jon!"

it was heartwarming... a moment i will always treasure. father's day, after all, can also be for non-fathers like me.